A Second Reminder to Breath

I’ve had a few blows to my self-esteem and ground­ing over the past week. I’ve also expe­ri­enced quite a num­ber of suc­cesses and great gains. It’s been a strug­gle bal­anc­ing the two sides, and right now the down side is weigh­ing in heavier.

I have a great deal of free time at the moment because it’s the break between semes­ters and my travel plans fell through at the last minute. With this free time and the rocky emo­tions, I’m re-centering through med­i­ta­tion, exer­cis­ing at capoeira classes and on bike rides, clean­ing house lit­er­ally by com­pletely rear­rang­ing and reor­ga­niz­ing my apart­ment, and spend­ing time with friends that I neglect when I am over­run with school work. (I’ve only made so much progress with my read­ing list.)  All of this has been uplift­ing. I think med­i­ta­tion is the key piece. When I keep up with a daily prac­tice, I am attuned. The men­tal chat­ter qui­ets down and under­cur­rents are more acces­si­ble. I fol­low my intu­ition. Intu­ition takes you to the places you need to go. Some of these places have been near ago­niz­ing recently. I take it as an indi­ca­tion that I am in tran­si­tion, mov­ing from one place to another. Old wounds get opened, retreated, and heal over a lit­tle bet­ter. It’s the per­fect time for it to hap­pen as I have the energy to attend to them. I go through this peri­od­i­cally and I’m always bet­ter for it.

“You know there’s the low tide moment when the water doesn’t even seem to be mov­ing, we need to breath like that.”